Breaking the addiction

I’ve had a long couple of weeks with not one full day off–working three jobs, plus other side projects, prepping for a show, and working through some (honestly) super heavy stuff, plus trying to workout and practice yoga for sanity, etc.

Needless to say, I haven’t made all of the best eating decisions due to time constraints and falling back to habits of stress eating. (Note: no-egg pineapple fried rice and Justin’s dark chocolate peanut butter cups have been consumed during this craziness. I’m not proud.)

However, yesterday I told myself I deserve better. I owe it to me. I chose to no longer participate in some really emotionally damaging crap lately, and now it’s time to do the same for my physical self. The reality is, much like other pains in my life, I can either let my strain consume me or empower me. I’ve opted for the latter.

So, today, after keeping a smile on my face for coworkers and clients all day–and trying REALLY hard to not say negative things despite all the other heavy stuff on my heart and mind–I felt exhausted. Why? Well, because that wasn’t a reflection of what I was truly feeling! Consequently, I wanted a sweet treat, because that’s my “poison”, so to speak. However, instead of cookies or ice cream or whatever treat possessed me in my stressful moments, I made this protein pudding when I got home. Super easy and completely satisfies my craving for sweets.

Ingredients:

One scoop plant fusion cookies n creme

Water (not measured, depends on thickness desired)

Banana

Cinnamon (to taste)

Peanut butter (two teaspoons)

It’s not really supposed to be on my meal plan right now, but I know it’s way better for me than what I was craving!

Sadly, I hadn’t realized until this past week that sweets were literally my addiction. I had a bad day, I coped by eating something sweet. I had a good day, I celebrated with something sweet. I don’t think consumption of alcohol or drugs are the answer for others, so why allow myself to follow those same habits and put garbage in my system?! (Just because it’s vegan doesn’t mean it’s healthy!)

I’m not swearing off all sweets, because I know myself and that will only make me want them more! But, I am changing my relationship with them starting Saturday.

*Off to a good start today too ;)